Sep 29, 2013

I'm in double digit zone now. I conquered 10.36 miles last Saturday. Let me tell you, this was NOT EASY. I'm not going to sugar coat any of it. I wanted to quit so many times. I decided to do this run outside. I think the longest I have ever run outside was 4 miles and that was over a year ago. I just thought I'd get bored on the treadmill at the gym.

I think the first two miles and the last two miles were the hardest. When I was in the middle miles I felt really good. I stopped at my halfway point (probably around mile 5.25) at my dad's restaurant. When I walked in he asked me if I came by car or foot. I told him I had run there and he started laughing and said, "No, you parked at Jack in the Box and walked over here." (He jokes a lot, for those of you who don't know my dad.) He gave me a bottle of water and I sat in his office for a few minutes. I drank water, ate a Larabar and charged my phone. When I got up to leave my dad asked me, "You're leaving already?" I said, "Yeah, I'm in the middle of something." I usually sit and talk to him for a while so he wasn't used to me leaving so quickly but I wanted to get my run over with!

From my dad's restaurant I ran over to Harveston and I ran around the lake. It was beautiful. So much was going on and it was all a great distraction. I was about to hit mile 8 and my feet were killing me. I ended up walking all of mile 8 and 9. I was kind of upset about that. I wanted to finish my run strong but I could feel blisters forming on the bottom of my feet and on my pinky toes. I hit 10.36 miles when I got to my door. First thing I did was check my feet. Luckily they were okay. Just very sore. I ended up talking to my friend about my situation later and he said it sounded like my shoes were too big. I told him my shoes were fine but maybe my socks were too thin. I went on a short run on Monday evening and I wore thicker socks. I felt like all the problems in my life had been solved! My feet were so much more comfortable with all that extra padding. Problem solved thanks to my friend, John.

I have to say that I am so beyond excited that fall is here! I love fall! The other morning I walked outside and felt the crisp in the air and it made me so happy! Falling leaves, everything pumpkin, boots and sweaters. It all makes me quite content.

And one last thing…I’ve had a bit of an obsession with Christina Hendricks lately. I’ve even created a “Curvy Christina” board on my Pinterest. My boyfriend said people who follow me on Pinterest probably think I’m gay. Honestly, she makes me feel better about myself. I read online (not sure how accurate the source was) that Christina is 5’8” and wears a size 14. I am 5’9” and I wear a 10 in dresses and a 12/14 in pants (depending on the brand). Whenever I feel like I need to lose weight, which is pretty much every day, I like to remind myself that not every girl wears a size 0 and not every girl needs to. Christina is a great role model for us curvy girls. 

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Sep 19, 2013

A couple of exciting things to update:

I zipped up my dress for my brother's wedding! I am so relieved that I was able to do that so soon. I'm going to look into getting the dress altered now. It's a little too "flowy" for my taste. Because of my curves I tend to gravitate more towards fitted dresses. This one doesn't really accentuate anything. I'm hoping some alterations may make the dress more flattering on my figure.

I was able to run eight miles on Saturday, September 7th. It was not an easy task but I was proud of myself when I was finished, like always. I was supposed to run nine miles this last weekend but life happened and I wasn't able to. I'll catch up some how.

On a more serious note, I've been praying a lot lately. I've been doing a lot of soul searching and I've been asking God for guidance. I am extremely happy with my personal life. I could not ask for more. I have the most amazing parents. I go home to the man of my dreams every night. My family and friends are wonderful. And my puppy is the cutest little dog in the world. So why the heck have I been soul searching you ask? Well let me tell you...I am not where I want to be on a professional level.

I have always known that I need to do something creative with my life and I'm not currently doing that. I truly believe that until I am in a creative field I will never be completely satisfied with my job. I have been praying for God to show me where He wants me. I've had a few doors slam in my face recently and I'm just waiting patiently for God to open a door.

I'm terrified when I think about the possibility of changing careers but I'm also extremely excited. I know that God will never give me more than I can handle.

And one last thing. I sang at the Merc here in Temecula on the evening of September 7th (after my eight mile run). I did a duet with my long-time friend, Miranda, and I sang two more songs on my own. I haven't sung in that kind of an environment in over a year so it was really exciting to be back on stage. Here are the links in case you want to watch:

Love Song

My beautiful mama and me before the show. 

My boyfriend's mama, my boyfriend, me and my mama.

My boyfriend, me and my boyfriend's Grandpa. It was so nice to have him there!

Me and Miranda. Friends for eleven years now. She's amazing. 

AND this handsome man! 

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Sep 2, 2013

I haven’t been following my half marathon training one hundred percent. My schedule is just too full so I try to find time to run when I am able. This past Saturday afternoon was wide open so I had no reason not to run. I finished work around 1:30 and I went to Target to grab a Clif bar (Chocolate Coconut, by the way) and then I headed to the gym. I told myself going in that I was going to stay for two hours and I was going to attempt seven miles. The most I had ever ran at one time is five miles, which was last summer. And the most I have ran at one time this year was four miles. Seven miles would have been a huge accomplishment for me.

I got on the treadmill and just went for it. Mile one felt pretty good. Mile two was a little more difficult. I started to doubt seven miles. How was I ever going to do seven miles at one time? I decided to turn on Katy Perry’s documentary on Netflix on my phone. I was able to keep my mind off of the miles and before I knew it I was finishing up four miles and I had been on the treadmill for an hour. The treadmill automatically went into a cool down at that point so I took advantage of it and ran to the restroom. At this point I was pumped. I was more than halfway done. I started to believe I could actually do it.

Mile six was brutal. I started to get a sharp pain in my right foot. I tried to walk a little until the pain went away. Once I felt better I started running again. When I began mile seven I felt weak. Next time I do a long run I am going to bring a snack to eat around this point. I really needed fuel but I didn’t have any and I didn’t want to quit. I decided I would just walk to last mile. I started to think about how far I had come and then I told myself, “I can’t walk the last mile!” I started running again and I ran until the end.

I felt so proud when I stepped off that treadmill. I had beaten my own personal record. That is probably one of the best feelings in the world. What I’ve learned through this experience is that we need to just be the best versions of ourselves. We need to stop comparing ourselves to others. We need to just be better than who we were yesterday. I feel much more confident in finishing my half marathon. I had my doubts but now I know that I am capable of anything.

I came up with a little something called Motivate Myself Monday. I put some photos together to remind myself how far I’ve come. 

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