Apr 30, 2014

This morning I had a feeling today was going to be a horrible day. I set my alarm for 6:30 and I'm usually wide awake and well rested by then. I'm a grandma, by the way, and I'm pretty much always in bed by 10. When my alarm went off this morning I must have turned it off and went back to sleep without even realizing. I ended up waking up at 7:15 and I felt like I had been run over by a truck. I could barely keep my eyes open and my head was pounding. It was awful. I decided to jump in the shower right away because I thought that would help me wake up. Luckily it did but the headache was still there. I made myself breakfast of eggs, bacon and turkey sausage (I'm a creature of habit) and coffee with my home made creamer. Then I took some ibuprofen. After about a half hour I was starting to feel better and my headache didn't return for the rest of the day.

I ate an apple for my snack. For lunch I ate two cut up organic turkey hot dogs, carrots and a banana. I felt like a child but it was a quick and easy lunch to pack. For an afternoon snack I had a Lara Bar. And for dinner I had a pork chop with sweet potatoes. I may or may not have some of my homemade chia pudding in a little bit. (Sorry I didn't take any photos of my food today.)

I made a stop at Trader Joe’s on my way home from work. I usually spend a good $60 when I go in there. Today, I only spent $25! I picked up so many things and then put them right back. Almost everything had added ingredients that are off limits for now. One of my favorite snacks has always been dried apricots and I thought, 'I should be able to have those! They're dried fruit!' Well, yes, they are dried fruit but unfortunately sulfur dioxide is added to them. This process is really opening my eyes to what I am putting in my body. I did find a new treat though! Freeze dried bananas. The only ingredient is – get this – bananas! I tried one and it tasted like candy. So good! They were only $2.99 for the bag and they also had freeze dried apples and blueberries. To all my Whole 30 friends I would highly recommend having these on hand.

Five days complete! Twenty-five days to go.

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Apr 29, 2014

When I woke up this morning I was so relieved to not have a headache. I did feel a little drowsy through out the day but I'd rather feel sleepy than uncomfortable. I read the day by day break down on Whole30.com before I started and I have also been referencing it now and then to see if what I'm feeling is normal. Days 4-5 is supposedly when you want to ‘kill all things’. I can say with confidence that I did not want to harm anyone or anything today. In fact, I felt the opposite. I noticed I was a little more cheerful than normal. Either I just bypassed the whole wanting to ‘kill all things’ faze. Or I am going to have a really bad day tomorrow.

One thing I noticed today is that I am not hungry. Ever. Usually my stomach would be growling my 8am and then again every three hours for the rest of the day but that was not the case today. And now that I think about it I wasn’t hungry yesterday either. My theory is that I am filling up on protein, fat and fiber and that is satisfying my body more than processed ‘diet’ foods ever will.

For breakfast I had eggs, bacon, turkey sausage and avocado. I also had a cup of coffee along with my fabulous new creamer! For a snack I had an apple (even though I wasn’t hungry). And then for lunch I had leftover cashew pork and a banana. For an afternoon snack I had a LaraBar.

My boyfriend picked up a roasted chicken at the store for me for dinner, which was so kind of him. I cooked up some sweet potatoes and ate them with some chicken. I think it’s crazy that a week ago I thought I didn’t like sweet potatoes. And now I’ve eaten them four days in a row.

I allowed myself some dessert tonight. I had a cup of coffee and my homemade chia pudding. I really enjoyed having something sweet. I know the Whole 30 recommends avoiding anything resembling a dessert but if the ingredients are all natural and there is no added sugar, I personally don’t see a problem with it.

Four days complete. Twenty-six to go. 

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Apr 28, 2014

I tried making my own coffee creamer yesterday. I blended coconut milk and dates in the food processor. It was a disaster. I think I should have cut the dates up into small pieces. The larger pieces got stuck on the blade and the coconut milk went everywhere and it was just a mess. I still poured the coconut milk into a pyrex and I let the dates sink to the bottom. I don't want huge chunks of dates in my cup of coffee but I thought maybe if they sat in the coconut milk over night they would sweeten up the milk a bit. Well, I was wrong! I had bitter coffee again this morning. I really miss the sweetness.

The whole point of the Whole 30 is to remind yourself that you don't NEED sugar. So I'm just going to have to keep pushing on without sweetener in my coffee. I've been trying to find a pure vanilla extract but all the ones I've seen have added alcohol, etc. Maybe cinnamon will do for now.

I've been doing a lot of reading. I found several recipes for the perfect coffee creamer and they call for coconut milk and an egg. I guess the egg is what makes it thick and creamy. I came home tonight and tried making my own coffee creamer for the second time. This time was a HUGE SUCCESS. You know that creamer I tried making yesterday I told you about? Well, I realized that the dates softened up on their own by sitting in the coconut milk. My boyfriend suggested I throw them in the blender along with the coconut milk and egg. I also added two tablespoons of melted coconut oil. It tasted so good! And it looked like egg nog. Mmmm. Egg nog. Focus, Heather. Okay. I’m sitting here typing this while drinking the best cup of coffee I’ve had in three days. It’s not very sweet. But it’s not bitter and that is perfect to me.

I guess I should tell you about the rest of my third day on the Whole 30. My headache was still hanging around today. I woke up and ate breakfast so that I could take some pain reliever. There was no way I was going to work with a headache. Sorry. Uh huh. For breakfast I had three eggs, bacon and turkey sausage. Same as yesterday. I also had my coffee with coconut milk.

For a mid-morning snack I ate a Lara Bar and an apple (number 118 for the year). I went home on my lunch break and ate leftovers! Cashew turkey breast, carrots and a little bit of my chia pudding. I just needed something sweet. #SorryI'mNotSorry

For dinner I had cashew pork and sweet potatoes. Yeah, I’m boring and once I found something I really like I eat it over and over again. I wanted to take a photo of the sweet potatoes once they had been cooked but I was so excited to eat them that I completely forgot! They were almost like chips. They turned out delicious. Even my boyfriend complemented me and he’s a really good cook so that means a lot to me.

I’d say day three was a success. Twenty-seven days to go! 

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Apr 27, 2014

Day 2 is coming to a close. I still have my headache. But I kind of like it. The headache is my body’s way of telling me that it’s working hard to get rid of all the junk that was lingering around. I welcome the headache because after the headache will come clarity and more energy…I hope.
For breakfast I had three eggs mixed with bacon and turkey sausage. Kind of like an omelet. I also had a cup of coffee with some almond milk.

I met my parents at the Cabazon Outlets and we did quite a bit of walking around. Surprisingly, I wasn’t hungry until close to 2pm. Either I was distracted by all the fabulous stores or all the protein I had for breakfast was very satisfying. Luckily I had a Lara Bar in my purse so I ate that. After the Outlets we got lunch from In & Out. Don’t worry. I had a double double protein style. Lettuce and tomato only. I’m not a fan of In & Out normally but it was actually quite good and I didn’t have to cheat.

For dinner I made cashew turkey. I ground up raw cashews and cooked them with turkey breast, garlic, a little salt and olive oil. My boyfriend made us some sweet potatoes similar to the ones we had last night since they were already prepped and ready to go.

For ‘desert’ I had an apple and some chia pudding that I made this afternoon. Three ingredients and super easy. Coconut milk, bananas and chia seeds.

I’m going to bed with a full belly, a happy heart and a headache.

Twenty-eight days to go.

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I completed my first day of the Whole 30. It wasn't too difficult but I have a feeling I shouldn't get my hopes up just yet. I did some reading on Whole30.com and it seems like the first two weeks are the most difficult. Once I get past that point THEN I will get excited. 

For those of you who have never heard of the Whole 30 it is basically 30 days of eating whole foods to cleanse your system. This means no sugar, no alcohol, no soy, no grains, no beans or legumes, no dairy, no white potatoes, no processed foods of any kind. After 30 days, you slowly add back in the foods that you have eliminated to see how your body reacts to each of them. I'm not doing this to learn if I have any allergies. I am doing this in order to re-teach my body what real food is. I know as of lately I was relying a little too much on processed foods and my goal is to change that. 

I started my day yesterday with a fresh green juice made from cucumber, celery, spinach, green apple and lime. I also had a cup of coffee with coconut milk. I am pretty sure I looked disgusted with every sip I took. Over the last couple of years, I have slowly cut back on the amount of sweetener I use in my coffee but I've never been a fan of coffee with NO sweetener. I'm hoping in thirty days I will actually enjoy it. 

I had a banana for a snack and then another with my lunch. I also had some pork and carrots. For an afternoon snack I made a smoothie with coconut milk, a banana and a couple of dates. I know smoothies are frowned upon during the Whole 30 but let me have my moment! 

For dinner I had a burger with no bun and sweet potatoes. I've never really been a sweet potato fan but I really enjoyed these! And because I am eating an apple a day every day in 2014 I had an apple for 'dessert'. I sliced it up and sautéed it in a pan with coconut oil and cinnamon. It was quite yummy! 

I ended the day with a tummy ache. I felt as if someone was stabbing my stomach over and over again. Not sure why. I was hoping it had nothing to do with what I ate. I meant to post this blog last night but I was in so much pain I went to bed as early as possible. I feel much better this morning. I did, however, wake up with a headache. Whole30.com said I would though. So I was prepared for that. 

One day down. Twenty-nine days to go! 

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Apr 23, 2014

Everyone always says, 'Oh my gosh, these photos are so embarrassing.' Or, 'I can't believe I'm posting these!' And yeah, I can relate. I feel somewhat embarrassed that I allowed myself to become that person on the far left. But I am also bursting with pride for the person I am today. I am no where near perfect. I struggle every day. I eat things I shouldn't eat and I skip workouts. But I have come so far and I have to be happy about that.

The photo on the far left was taken in January of 2011. I started my weight loss journey in August of 2010 so this wasn't even documenting my heaviest weight. That January I started working out with a friend of mine who was also a personal trainer. He really helped me and the photo in the middle was taken about a month later. You can see by the huge grin on my face that I was ecstatic with my results.

The photo on the far right was taken this morning. I am not done. I see myself accomplishing more than what I already have. I don’t have a goal weight anymore. My goals are centered more around how I feel. Right now I’m feeling pretty good, especially after putting all these photos together.

For those of you who are on a weight loss journey, I highly recommend taking progress pictures. Sometimes the scale doesn’t move but you can always see your hard work when you compare old pictures to new ones. Prove that scale wrong!!!

And since it’s Wednesday here are a couple outfits from this week. Happy What I Wore Wednesday!

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Apr 20, 2014

I’m pretty sure I have said this before but I am breaking up with the scale. I have had an epiphany. I wanted some Bermuda shorts so I did a little shopping yesterday. I haven’t bought any pants in a while and I haven’t bought shorts in two years. I grabbed a size fourteen because I knew I had gained some weight since the last time I shopped. They fit and I loved them but I thought, ‘I wonder if I can go down to a twelve.’ I was skeptical because I did not want to get upset if they didn’t fit but something deep inside convinced me to give it a try. I am so glad I listened to the only positive ounce of me because they fit! I could not believe it! I bought two pairs – one dark denim and one darker denim.

Today I started thinking about the last pair of shorts I bought in 2012 when I was thirty pounds lighter. I pulled them down off my shelf and I slowly stepped into them. I was expecting to struggle in order to get them over my thuys but I was mistaken. AND I was able to button them easily.

What this means is that the scale is worthless. I’ve let it determine how I feel about myself for far too long. I may have gained thirty pounds according to the scale but my size twelve shorts say otherwise. I’m going to go off of how I feel and how my clothes fit from here on out (once again, I’m sure I’ve said this in the past). I will continue to eat well and exercise, of course, but I'm going to do it to FEEL good and healthy. I'm not going to do it so that the number on the scale will go down. 

Anyone else fed up with the digital heart breaker?

And can I please comment on how much my hair has grown over the last two years?! 

2012 - size twelve and thirty pounds lighter

Same shorts today

New Bermuda shorts

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