Jun 30, 2015

IIFYM The Right Way

As you know, I'm shedding for the wedding and training for life. {Meaning, after my wedding I'm not going to go back to old habits. I'm going to continue working out and eating right and possibly train for a power lifting competition.} I didn't want a quick fix or a trendy diet. I wanted an eating plan that I could continue with even after our wedding. I've done iifym in the past. I figured out my own daily macros needs and I went off of what I read online and learned from fellow iifym-ers. This time around I wanted to ensure that my numbers were correct and that I was doing everything correctly. I went to the famous, Paige, for assistance. She helped me so much and I have no doubt that I will see results real soon. 

I learned that before now I was tracking my food intake incorrectly. If a food item said 50 grams, I would just log a servings and I would measure out 50 grams. If I went over a little or under a little I would let it go but it all adds up. So let's say the serving is 50 grams and you end up consuming 59 grams. You would divide 59 by 50 and you would log 1.18 in the serving size. When she explained this to me and I actually understood, I was very excited! Now it's like a game to me. 

I also didn't realize that I should be logging all gum, sugar free syrups, packs of Splenda and vitamins. 

Here are a couple things that I've been eating. I use Orgain Organic Protein now that I'm not consuming dairy. I wish I could just have whey protein because #1 it has more protein and #2 it has less or zero carbs. This stuff is pretty good for a plant based protein though. I've been blending a serving of Orgain with almond milk, frozen berries and raw egg whites {to add a little extra protein}. It's pretty scrumptious and it's a very good blend of protein and carbs. 

I'm contemplating buying a second food scale to keep at work. I've been carrying mine around in my purse but it would be bad news bears if anything happened to it.

I am OBSESSED with the Cookie and Cocoa Swirl Butter from Trader Joe's. It's awfully hard measuring it out because I just want to eat the whole jar but it prevents me from feeling guilty after I eat it.

So incredibly good!

I went out and bought some chocolate Vitamuffins. I used to love these things but I thought they had dairy in them. An insta-friend reminded me that they are dairy free so I ran to Target as soon as possible. And I threw some Cookie and Cocoa Swirl Butter on it. Oh, and this was another day. I'm not eating multiple servings of Cookie Butter each day but even if I were, as long as it fits within my macros is what matters! 

Dinner last night was perfect. Rotisserie chicken from Costco, garlic Naan, hummus and bruschetta. Very filling and delicious. 

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was a lot less than I was expecting. My fiancé and I have been eating out so much, I was expecting to have gained at least ten pounds. I actually lost about three since the last time I weighed myself. Hopefully that number continues to go down...but I'm trying not to worry about the number on the scale. I'm more concerned about slimming down and getting stronger. 

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Jun 29, 2015


This was my face the first week of March. With makeup on, I might add. I had eaten pizza for my birthday {February 28th} and THE VERY NEXT DAY I felt a cystic pimple forming. I haven't eaten any dairy since then. Four months now. I still get the occasional pimple but nothing compared to the painful under the skin cystic pimple. 

This is my skin now. No makeup. I had just woken up when I took these. 


I have scars, yes. But honestly, I can live with the scars. It's the awful red cysts that I can't stand. All the research I've ever read has stated that pimples around the chin area is because of a hormone imbalance. I really don't ever get pimples anywhere else besides my chin. I'm not quite sure how hormones work and why there is an imbalance present in me but I can state without a doubt that dairy attacks my body and I'd much rather live without it.

Here I am in the summer of 2010. I was fifty pounds heavier, standing at the edge of the Mississippi River, eating the one thing that was causing my breakouts. It's taken a lot of trial and error. I've used creams and face soaps and I've even tried medications. Nothing worked. Until I gave up dairy. 
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Jun 25, 2015


I absolutely hate June 25th. Unless one of my children just happens to be born on this day, there may always be a dark cloud over it. 

I never met Michael personally, although I dreamed about the possibility up until June 25th, 2009, but even still he was always there for me. He's been gone for six years now but he remains there.

I played his music this morning on my drive to work and I cried. The pain I felt that day lingers. I wonder if it will ever go away. 

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Jun 24, 2015


This kid. He's something else. When I was at the shelter signing adoption paperwork for him, they did let me know that he isn't go with other dogs. I didn't think anything of it. I just figured he'd need to be socialized and he'd be fine. Well, I took him out on a walk last night by myself and I have to say it was a very embarrassing, frustrating and terrifying experience. We headed to a nearby lake and it was doggy galore. He went after every single dog. Even the little itty bitty chihauhaus. I had to use all of my strength to hold him back. This happened at least fifteen times. The circulation in my hands was cut off because of how hard he was pulling his leash. It was a nightmare. 

When my fiancé called me on his way home from work, I gave him an earful. Maybe a foreshadow of what it will be like when we have kids. He called our nearby Petco to find out when they do dog training. My fiancé will be taking him on Tuesday. I hope things will get better.

He's a really good dog otherwise. He pretty much listens to everything we say except when there's another dog around. Hopefully Petco can work some wonders. I tried taking some selfies with him tonight but he just kept licking me. Maybe Petco can train on selfies too? 

By the way, I promise this won't end up being a doggy blog. Back to our regularly scheduled programming tomorrow. Also, I made our first mortgage payment this morning. Ouch. That hurt. 

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Jun 22, 2015

Vader's First Weekend Home

I will admit, I was very apprehensive about adopting a boxer and having him inside the house with us. I've only ever had a small dog indoors. Each day that passes I become a little less anxious than the day before. Vader is an extremely good dog. I can't even believe how well he listens. We are blessed to have such a well mannered dog. 

He will definitely be living the good life from here on out. This was pretty much all he did all weekend.

Since it was technically my fiancé's first Father's Day, I wanted to make sure he had a gift from Vader. He loves unique sodas so I gathered a couple from World Market and Bevmo. I also found this old fashioned soda case from World Market. I'm pretty sure the fact that Vader posed with the gift was the best part of the gift. My fiancé loved everything about it.

Oh, and then he laid around some more. 

Sunday night we went out for a family walk to Sprouts and Starbucks. Vader attracted a lot of attention. All the ladies wanted to pet him. 

My fiancé asked him, "Where were you five years ago when I was single?" 

Shirt is fromBarre Socks. It's incredibly soft and perfect for Summer. 

Vader had his first Starbucks experience. He was dying to go inside but I stayed outside with him while Stephen grabbed our drinks. He likes to walk up to every door he approaches. He's very social and he loves other people. Other dogs? Not so much. We're going to have to work on that. 

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Jun 16, 2015

We're Parents!

When my fiancé and I met, he was unsure about whether or not he wanted children...but he has always known he wanted a dog. Or two. He absolutely loves Boxers and he's talked about getting one for a long time. He grew up with Boxers and he's always had a dog in his home. I never felt it was fair to have a big dog in a little apartment so I told him as soon as we got our house, we could also get a dog. As soon as we were in escrow, I signed up on an adoption site - adoptapet.com. I received emails every time a dog came into a nearby shelter that matched what I was looking for. There were several boxers but none were the one. And then we saw this guy and we just knew. 

My fiancé went to the shelter to see him last week and fell in love. He wasn't able to adopt him yet though. The Boxer was micro chipped and the shelter was waiting to see if they got a hold of his owners before putting him up for adoption. My fiancé put a deposit on him anyways. Sunday was the two week mark and he was officially up for adoption. I took a drive to the Ramona Humane Society to meet him and he just stole my heart. As soon as I walked up to his kennel, he started smiling and jumping up and down. I said, "Hi baby!" and he barked back at me. It was meant to be. 

They allowed me to take him outside for a few minutes. It was his first time outside in TEN days! Broke my heart to hear that. He was so excited. He kept running around and he was mesmerized by the cow and donkey nearby. 

My mother-in-law made him pose for a photo so we could send it to daddy. He was not happy. He was like, "Mom, I just want to play!" 

And then he winked at me when I let him run around again. I was not able to take him home with me on Sunday but he is officially ours. He has to get neutered next week at their animal hospital. After that we can bring him home. His surgery is scheduled for June 25th - that's always been a sad day for me because it's the day Michael Jackson passed away. So if I'm able to turn that day into a good one, I will be grateful. 

His name will be Vader and his grandparents {my parents} have already bought him a gift. His very own tag.

And my fiancé and I found him the perfect collar. We bought him the collar, some toys and his food and water bowls even before we knew for sure we could adopt him. All we need is a bed and food. He'll be so loved. 
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